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Monday, October 3, 2011

Things been seeming terrible

Good morning.  This is me and we’re going to try to write this morning without being so depressed.  Yesterday we slept on Rich’s lap for a small while after we stopped the writing … that seemed to help clear our head a lot though it didn’t seem to last for a long time.  I believe we complained about having to wait so long for dinner, but in general figure we better get used to waiting until 5 pm, because that’s Rich’s schedule and He IS the cook!  Not without some grumbles though … we’re still getting hungry about  4 pm.

I think in there we talked to Linda for a while but the night is still foggy … maybe we talked to her for just a few moments and then again maybe closer to 8 or 9 pm.  Think it took about that long to get serious about finishing a paper.  We’re going to have to talk to someone from the school today to figure some of that part out.  I need to be doing papers more efficiently, but then too working on a schedule so that the whole day isn’t wrecked because of something difficult to be doing.  One paper DID get written, but I’m not up to speed yet. 

I think we’re going to try writing for a bit in the morning and then maybe doing some morning sewing to get myself in better moods, and then try to do the school work.  I just know that a stronger self is looking forward more to sewing than papers and so if that is the case maybe we should take some of the pressure down to be doing the other first.  We’ll see. 

Rich had to put a stop to ideas of getting the three boys fabric to make wedding/Christmas quilts.  He tried to do it gently, but the bottom line is that the money is not there.  He tried to help me think it through so that only a little got ordered at a time, but we knew some of the fabric was short and if we were going to commodore the situation that we’d have to put in a larger bulk order, and that to do so would mean another trip back to WI, but we couldn’t make 3 trips to get 3 quilts, and we needed to know we could make ALL 3 quilts.  We couldn’t start one boy’s without securing the second and we definitely had wanted to focus on their quilts for retreat in five weeks.

So if that is going to happen what next?  Maybe the thing to do is let those ideas sit for a while until we’re positive enough again to approach it.  There are other ideas.  Maybe one of the things we should do today is look into how to put items on one of the selling sites.

I feel pretty shaky as to a note just received.  Rich was in the shower when it appeared, but I read it to him so he would know where things were.  He had caught that there wasn’t a record of time off, so we told him that the hours would be sent back to her.  I feel like I’m swimming.  As soon as we get a copy of the note that went out to Sr. Theresa, in our sent file (it is being slow), we will forward a copy to Dr. Marvin.  I’m sure that he has a copy of Sr.’s note too.

This is the note and response from and to Sr. Theresa just received

Good morning Ann,

Hope you are feeling better....

Need to get your absence it in your computor?

You again neglected to fill out absence sheets....I need this

information to see where you stand in paying sick days and vacation


In the future....after my email to Dr. Marvin.....Your hours will be

cut down to 20 hours per week....this way you will maintain your health will be a cut in might want to explore

disability funding.

Monday through the Center....9:30 a.m. to 2:00 p.m.

Will talk to you again.

Sr. Theresa

Sr. Theresa,

No comment on the balance of this email. I would like to talk to Dr.

Marvin about it. I'll be seeing him both on Tuesday and Thursday. The

following are the days I've taken for sick or other time. Please

advise, how many days do I have left of personal, sick and vacation


Thank you,


July 6th sick day

July 23rd personal day

September 12, 13, 14, 15, 16

September 19, 20, 21, 22, 23

September 26, 27, 28, 29, 30


I didn’t really know what she was going to do to me.  She cut hours and salary.  I don’t know if that meant that the salary was cut due to a lack of hours she was giving or whether she took down the hourly pay that she used to calculate what the salary was to be.  I don’t know if cutting my hours means a cut to my paid days.  I know she didn’t discuss part time work with me.  She made no attempts and to me it feels like punishment … like by the way since you are sick I’m no longer going to give you full time work even after 12 years full-time service.  I also felt angered that she suggested that I explore disability funding … it is like knows we have problems with disability, but she made no allowances for it.

Dr. Marvin, please contact me when you have available time or through email… What did she email you?  Had you sent her the note we talked about last week?  Does this all seem right to you?


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