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Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Revving up our engines

Wednesday, July 25, 2012 at 9:10 AM

Good morning. This is just us. Hopefully, today will be more productive than yesterday. We just read the little blog entry that we had started and really had not gotten around to finishing. We labeled it false start. It was like I wanted to write but we just never got into the groove of saying anything significant except for we are warming up to bat. So maybe it was just like that the team got out before we ever got up to really hit the ball.

Rich came home last night but it was late and I didn't really wake up to see what was going on, we were too sleepy. We do know that he took the pajamas that we had wrapped in our arms. This is a common trick of ours. If you want to know when Rich gets here, then you just need to take his pajamas so that when he takes his pajamas back, we will wake up. Just that last night we did wake up, but not so much. The important part was that we knew that he was home and safe.

We talked to Linda for quite a while. And then just afterward we went directly to bed. I guess the two of us had a lot to talk over. I am thinking that yesterday wasn't such a great day and that it's best to just forget it and move on. As to his mother though, she was fine it was just that she was overly drunk and was fighting Bud and Rich.  She was very verbally abusive because she wanted to drink more, but could not walk a straight line and had already fallen. That is literally pretty much it. Rich had to follow her back to the bedroom and grabbed her each time she started to tip over. She had her walker but he said her legs were not strong underneath her. I wonder what she really gets out of drinking? Maybe she likes to be in that stupor stage?

I think the bad part that Rich talked about a little this morning, was that he was saying that she was wrestling the guys for the bottle and in the process of one thing to another she got so angry that she was saying things and cursing and saying very hurtful things. Rich says he knows his mother and so he doesn't take it to heart, but I think that it must be hard to go through anyway. She's not a happy drinker. She just gets belligerent and argumentative.  AND, she doesn't take care of herself.

I don't know if you noticed, but yesterday we had met another multiple through twitter and he had had a beautiful rainbow on his site and he must've thought it was good enough because it seemed to describe that personality he was presenting. So we went to the same place as he had been and answered the question so we could get a reading for us to have a rainbow. I love it! The colors are muted in violet over the regular rainbow and it's just really nice. Underneath it it says that I am a creative person. I appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. And that I'm patient and will keep trying to understand something until I've mastered it. I don't know if that is me hundred percent because we switch to so many personalities, but it was really a nice pleasant thought and right now the colors keep drawing us back into looking at them because they're so beautiful. Give it a shot when you come by its under

Today, I am going to be determined to do school solidly. I am kind of looking forward to it, but just a little intimidated by the questions because the last time I read them they appeared a little hard. I am finished with the reading so I have some work to do today.  The class is handing in their fourth week assignment and I'm just going to be working at finishing my second. I don't know how we can get so far behind. I don't think we really ever answer that in the blog except to say that we are here, or we are at twitter, or we are reading something online, so all that means is that we're not writing or reading for school. I think that we save our schoolwork till the afternoon, and then when we get caught up in something else, and then we think we'll do it tonight, but then we get tired at night so don't do it then either.  So we have to break that pattern. Traditionally though, the morning is my writing/editing time, and I think that it's fair that we also get time to write.

I thought that I would pull up my library from Diigo, and look over some of those entries. From the 22nd, which would've been somewhere later than when we had posted on Sunday, the first entry was Carolyn Spring who had written 20 helpful things that a therapist had said about dissociative identity disorder.  I don't remember being the one who read this. Maybe it was something that we had collected for later. The next item was understanding dissociation and that was from Paul Dell. I think it was when we had found his site, although it appeared he hadn't written in it for quite a while, at least a half year. Wthise really like him and thought most likely this writing was going to be very important for us, but it was at that time just to make a reference point.The next entry was on constructivism in online learning. I think this was exciting to us because they were talking about online learning and constructivism as we had been reading about it and that it was interactive and those kinds of things were still exciting us. The next entry was called bittersweet Gestalt: creeping on the creeper. I think we had discussed this earlier and that somebody had copied a dialogue where somebody had been creepy to her, and she needed to look into that through her blog which obviously then could be read by others - like us :) I love it when multiples Write!

The next entry was on the Adobe captivate 6 workbook. I think we had decided not to get that book, but that we might go back to it. It was a 230 page workbook from Adobe that outlined the basic things on essential, but we thought maybe we could get through some of it on our own without having to go through the book because there are so many simple straightforward things in Adobe captivate and we're looking at money. We also made a note that it was there and that in a couple months they were going to be coming out with another manual that would be for more advanced functions. I apologize it wasn't Adobe to put it out it was iconlogic.

The next link was about data that might change everything including delivering the promise of learning analytics for the benefit of higher education. The article was from educause. I think this article had to do with how universities were looking at usage patterns of more and more online data that is now available, and how it might help toward understanding better college enrollment, retention and other. From what I recall, it barely touched on the part of learning from the actual art of learning, but they did make mention of it as a progressive place they could go to in the near future. I think it was a lengthy article and one that we intend to go back to as we develop the need.  We are doing better at taking items so we can find them later, and it helps that in Diigo, it suggest tags, so you only have to start typing them so you can match the same writing tense like Bug instead of Bugged. For the time being the article seemed to be a good resource because it was so thorough. The next entry said if you aren't social you'll shrink: 10 steps to becoming a social business. This one was from Christine Comaford, and it seems that her points were well thought out and she had many quotes from successful business people.

And then we are on to the 24th, which was yesterday. We only collected two entries yesterday. We would like to find more good articles. We just weren't finding great links yesterday. The first good one we save fellow was an easy way to build branch scenarios for e-learning. This heads into the links we are collecting on storytelling. We get our interest in storytelling from Dr. Woollcott.  He used to write about people making up their own  mythology as to how they got from one space in life to the next. Most of us are actually doing this in just the normal stead. Some of the stories we as people develop come from other people's accounts of our life, so what we believe is not necessarily true just depended on how good they recall and how honest they are in not writing themselves a bigger or better piece of the picture then had occurred. It is up to us to still make the story work for our life, so you put together facets about your life that make sense to you and it explains how or why we do things.

I think that this particular article was interesting to me because they talked about putting together stories online, so that people could like read one part and then they could have choices and go from one direction to another direction and they would find out something different along their path than if they had just gone through a linear progression of thoughts. This idea excites me, and I think you could work with something on trying to understand multiplicity. We've been thinking of getting information from reading about or talking to multiples - while giving them privacy, but not really losing the multiples in the sweep of communication either. I suppose it would depend on how interested they were and how concrete or abstract they would like to be in a more public format. Something like this could work in that if we were writing a huge quote unquote story like through the mind maps, and then later penning it out on slides,then the past could drift towards the dilemmas that one multiple is facing and some of the dilemmas in dealing with her world, which could parallel or shift into the story were following on others.

The story would turn depending on how the reader interested himself in the subject matter and what alternatives here she was interested in looking toward. For example, if we are reading a story on Sally Someone and she had had a bad day, one link might be that she chose not to take her medicine, another lead would be that she got angry and yelled at someone who didn't deserve it, or did deserve it, and then another lead might take her to the part where she decided to skip her psychologist for that day, because she had transferred her anger on him. So depending on what the reader had hoped Sally's thoughts might be, the reader could test out different conclusions, or do the one that was most interesting to her. the choices would include different parts so that the choices would follow their patterns  too. I like the part about using thinking processes to make sense out of this world, or these possibilities of thought. I am trying to get to the point where I can understand how multiples are different in their thinking processes then people without multiplicity, and if people can understand why life's challenges are more difficult as a multiple. I have my theories, but I would like to see how that all pans out.

I think to do something like that, you would have to be capturing quite a few scenarios, probably make them so if I was reading from any particular multiple's work, and she said she had this thought, so I did such and such that that observation and then conclusion would become a scenario would lead from one slide to another. There would have to be a very large outline, so I would be able to connect one story to another. I wouldn't want to take advantage of the multiple stories I would be imitating from our reading. On one hand I don't want to steal all her thoughts, but on the other I don't want to disregard that she has such important thoughts and thought processes. perhaps the best thing is to just keep it out in the open as much as possible so people can gain understanding as they progress through their own observations.

It is just a random thought I have going on in my head right now as to how to do something that would be very interesting and make a difference. This would be just one part of the multiple package that I'm trying to figure out and present. I might want to go back and read that article today, because it'd just be fun to get started. It was as I was reading some of the entries anyway. I know we have to share the time. But I'm looking for some way that would help multiples understand themselves and others who are looking at multiples as they try to comprehend multiplicity has a real reality. It just seems that things should be built toward a particular manner. The author who wrote the storytelling article talked about linking learners to first - challenge, second - choices, and then third - consequences. That really works for an interactive story. I think that we'll see more and more of that in the coming years as people learn to interject themselves better as visits into other people's worlds.  It may be sort of like Second Life does. I think that's the name of the application that could be checked later.

The second article that we took yesterday was on exploring tappestry. Note that had two p’s in it. This one was a social network for learning that is only available right now on the Apple iPhone and the Apple iPod Touch. Basically, what it does is that you learn to look for learning opportunities that you have completed in any one given day and then those opportunities get noted in a big log from your iPod, and that data is somehow referenced to other people's data to gain different perspectives. This might be simple things like I learned how to make chocolate milk, or I learned how to drive, or I had learned how to use the scanner.  I think there's a part also were it gets timed into the time and location so people can start making coordinating information about how that all takes place. Basically, the tool takes advantage of any opportunity that we have had to learn something new, and then that leaves a very nice display – sort of like a tetra game where the things that you do make a pretty brick wall which helps you to sort out some patterns in what you are doing in the direction you want to take in your day-to-day life.  When one thought is more important than the others, you might rate it a nine instead of before and that would result in having bigger blocks for that item, and other blocks would take on lesser significance, and they would be color-coordinated.

It is all about watching patterns and using them so we each could better define our roles, and our world, sort of along the lines of self-regulating, which means you have better control and power over yourselves so as well in public. I love the concept, but I think I had trouble getting it to my iPad touch. It did get me to get my touch out of the backpack and recharge it, but I don't quite remember where I left off except for thinking this was too frustrating at this time. I think there was something to do with another application called tin can, and that might be a platform that the other was based on, but then that one seemed to have something underneath it, so that the complication overwhelmed the reward of figuring it out. Maybe, I was just at a bad time to be figuring things. The material I was reading was putting out information about how the program worked intrinsically and not simply on just how to use it - maybe more on that later, for right now it's then left a marker.  If not this model in particular, we should be looking for more these kind of things to be coming up. my mind and some of my parts minds seem to be working on the basis that is similar to others out there, which makes me feel like I'm not so alone. I think that some of the real value I get in doing the kind of work we are doing especially through the TweetDeck.

We learned a couple things already this morning, or at least skimmed through them. One had supported the things we're just saying on the storytelling. The article was called the psychology of storytelling: 10 proven ways to create better stories and why stories sell. I think it was a longer article and we didn't have enough tolerance to read it immediately,but it had been a bridge from the other thought to the next, and I think the author talked more about why it is that people pick up storytelling as listeners or readers and interact with those thoughts like morals, or in completing scenarios that had only been started in a good Gestalt manner, or like how people like to solve puzzles, or TV mysteries. I think it was a good article, and really if I go back to the other article on storytelling, I will do this one as well to check and see how well they fit together. It seems to be a hotspot in our mind.

And then, there was one last article on brick-and-mortar education and wondering if it is going to be left in the dust because of online learning and split classrooms. The author talked about things we were learning in school such as constructivism. It dealt with people being more involved and responsible for their learning and how that would affect teachers and how they would adapt to it as more facilitators than just someone to deliver information in a lecture information. Lessons could still be delivered, but they might be shorter segments and they would be recorded so somebody could go back to them or find them at whichever time best suited them, which is another branch of this whole storytelling thing. it turns on the reader's dime. The article was written by Partridge and he's becoming like a superstar to me.I might want to favorite him today if I can remember. He is one of the big people at telling the Adobe story in twitter format. He has made several of the videos for them and keeps up with his twitter and he just seems to be on top of what's happening now. I was impressed that he could not only do the Adobe products like captivate, e-learning, and the cloud, but as well, he understood the actual bottom line to educators and learning, and figuring out what life's priorities are in advancing culture and society. He also talked about sort of the speed or methodology of how learners work in that they pick up smaller more clustered pieces of information before going from one thing to another.

It is almost like learners nowadays have some form of attention deficit disorder where their thoughts are going really fast, and perhaps though not filling in all the details, are still picking up a larger sketch of what is happening and they use their mental processes to siphon down what is important to them in their learning. I admit I do it myself like if I haven't found something of interest within the first couple minutes of reading, I skip it and I go on to searching through the twitter deck for something new. I can do this for hours and hours and days on days without wanting to take a break. People really do create their own scenarios in life. it is then sort of up to us as individuals to assist others in transferring data that could benefit them as well.

Okay maybe for an example of how fast we switch from one topic to another, it is like we just heard the bleep from Linda and recognized it. She is on her way to the shower and she has to go out to do some errands and we might meet her at the 2 PM time because she's going to be out later this evening with the girls group she belongs to. So since we stopped by at Facebook for just a second we noted that Julie had left us a great big yellow square with a happy face winking, and it says you're special! That kind of thing makes me smile. That's interesting Joe and Cari who just had their second wedding anniversary last night are talking about a herbal life STS, which is a success training seminar. They say that it's on August 11 in Elk Grove which isn't that far off from us.  He said that anyone that wanted to learn more about the products should come to the seminar. The first couple hours are free and then he said afterwards you have to pay for the seminar which is like $30, and he said that we could talk to him, or any of his listeners that might be reading this note and that they might spring the $30 for us to learn. That's a really positive thing. I know he knows that at least we are conscious of the money and that spending money at this time is worrisome for us. It sounds like he's really motivated to get people to go. I would like to go to one, but will have to see, it sounds like it'll be the weekend after I get back from the girls weekend in Wisconsin. we'll have to watch our back load of school work.

We might want to say something about that for just a moment. I haven't talked to the ladies for a while now. I don't even know if I've talked to them in July. I think that a couple of the others have written, but nobody is giving a whole lot of information so I didn't pick it up. Closer to the event, like now, since it is the next weekend after this one. It is probably a good idea that we start putting a little information out there so people start looking forward and really engaging with us. Not us in particular but more each for each other including all six of us. I have to admit that right now I haven't been into that sewing world so those thoughts are kind of  harder to pull-up. Even with Linda, she has been doing so many things other than sewing that the conversations are not then in the air. She's got some new work coming in tomorrow I believe, so maybe that will restart some of those thought directions, but until we get caught up in school again it's hard to take that super leap.

Okay that was enough about that. I'd like to give a couple thoughts toward school now so that we can at least work her way toward those sets of thoughts were just moving our light back into action. It was decommissioned yesterday when we were looking at the computer. We really do like that it has one of the stretchy stretchy neck things so that we can focus it where we might need.

Okay looking at lesson 3 for backward design. This is the information that we have read about before. There is an assignment before that, but I'm not sure how many points we are losing every day. I thought I had needed to get this in by Saturday, and we did, so I still don't know if she will give us any credit, although I think we still have to get it in, so we can think through those thoughts and progress them for the next lesson. As to the actual assignment it says:

That during the assignment we will utilize and synthesize the information gleaned from the module content and readings in order to further explore a) backward design as part of the instructional design process, b) understanding, and C) the six facets of understanding theory. The procedure is that we reflect and respond to the following questions.

I'm going to have to reformat the way they displayed so I can answer specifically certain questions on an outline form. So that we answer:

1        What is backward design?

How does this approach relate to instructional design?

Specifically consider:

3.        Is there a difference between lesson planning, curriculum design and instructional design?

Go back to characteristics of instructional design we covered in week one.

4.       Are the characteristics of instructional design typically found in lesson planning?

Another approach is to look up the job requirements of an instructional designer.

5.       Are they the same job requirements required of the teacher who plans lessons?

And then we are to look at the definition and acquisition of knowledge and understanding

6.       Compare and contrast.

7.       Discuss the differences.

The first part is to provide an example of each.

8.       Why is it important to consider understanding in the instructional design process?

9.       What examples of understanding are appropriate in the learning situation?

1   How do you assess understanding versus knowledge?

The second part is

1   How would we define the knowledge and understanding of novices versus experts?

1   Do you define students in terms of being novices and moving them to being experts in the topic?

The next part is to

1   Explain the six facets of understanding theory?

1   Do we typically see the six facets in the lesson plan versus and instructional design plan? (discuss and provide examples to support your answers.

Sorry about the formatting there.

I don't really have answers for these questions yet, but I know that it is within the reading. We took a lot of notes but it's like 100 pages to go back over to dig–out the particulars. I know that understanding and knowledge are throughout all of the papers pages so that is can be a lot to go through.

The questions generally start numbered, but when you break it down that's really what it means. We found that before the questions were formatted so that it was and art of confusion. It was garbled up, and we couldn't extract one sentence from the next and then answer the questions. A little bit of cold feet here. I feel better after having gone back and place some space between them, it makes more sense, but there's a feeling of being overwhelmed by the material. Maybe a little bit more coffee would help the sense of determination. Okay we have more coffee. How are we going to calm ourselves down? we need more definition. I do think that doing the work with an outline is going to help the situation and also it might help to continue with the Dragon because I can be moving pages and looking at carefully while still talking and writing.

So then, what we do give ourselves as the smallest mind break, so we can go back at it? Maybe this is the time of our work where we have to ensure everything is in order so it doesn't get claustrophobic on us and we are left to wonder if I should vacuum before it starts getting really bad in here. No, not necessarily do I have to vacuum to study, but it would be helping not to be stepping on popcorn as a reason to lose time again. Beside it would be okay to vacuum, because that would make Rich happy as well. Okay, be right back.

Okay, we are back. Annmarie's back hurts a little like when standing for more than just a few minutes, but the general idea is that the place looks to us a little bit better. It just feels happier and less congested. The only things we really did was to straighten up, vacuum the living room, and we put some dishes away. The carpet was really a mess. Rich will probably notice the clean carpet as the first thing when he gets back. The other thing we did was we turned–on the air conditioner. Rich had us turn it off this morning because he was too cold, but it slows us down if we're too warm to breathe proper. The time is now 10:32 AM. We're thinking what is it that we have to write about before we really get started. Okay, beside calming our mind down. Let us look at that – slowing our mind down. Is this the time we asked the question should we be listening to music or not? OK, I didn't mean it. We don't have to listen to music. It confuses somebody when we talk on the microphone and listen in earphones at the same time. I think this is the most difficult part we get to each time – In getting ready for the next part of our work, and for the next personality. We are going to put the outline in front of us and then skim for notes throughout the paper and see if we can answer some of those questions. Steady girls we can do this.

We're about to the end of our morning as to drinking coffee may be one of the things that would help us if we got something else to drink. This is probably too early to drink pop, so let's try getting water from the refrigerator? Okay that is done what's next? We've got two thoughts coming up in our mind right now the first one is that we need to post an entry and then the second one is that we'd like to look over twitter once more. But how do we guarantee that we are going to go from there to doing homework? Can we get some promises? How is it that we can ensure that she will do the work? I'd hate to be a betting woman here. Okay that is one thing, we got out the information from the clipboard, and were going to take the clipboard off so that it doesn't impede us while we turn pages. We are looking for all the little things here that could make a difference down the line to another part seems to need these kind of pre-specifications to work. We’re trying to set this up as something that is can be fun to do were good at this and the stuff right?

Kelsey are you out there?

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