Wednesday, April 15, 2015 @ 9:50 AM
Good morning.
It’s not quite 10 am yet and we’re done with the morning stuff, plus
into that more than we would like … Just back to vaguely searching around FB
for something important, but we didn’t see it.
We did have oatmeal for breakfast, but now that Rich
is in the shower, we’re having ice cream too.
Yup, yup you know it’s going to be one of those days. We did talk to Linda … she’s planning to sew
and be out today – I have to give her a lot of credit for that. As to us, we had nothing we wanted to put on
the agenda … she suggested, sewing, writing or cleaning and all we could do is
confirm those were the normal suspects.
So here we are anyway … I guess writing has won out over other things,
though usually soon behind that comes cleaning.
Won’t do any machines though with Rich in the shower. YAY – Excuse #1.
Hmm, ice cream is gone – we grabbed a pop and let
Dakota out in the sunroom. Pretty sure
that Rich is going to come by and say that it’s too cold. But, we seem to be running that mood where
eh, everything is fine – just let it alone.
Thinking this morning that we’re like in our invisible mode. I’m assuming Rich got up at 5 am, we were up
at 3 am, but went to bed soon after.
Then it wasn’t until about 8 am that we Really got up, took care of the
dog and got our medicine – maybe a little before that … Linda came sometime
shortly after 8 am, and then we were off til 9 am, and then as stated monkeying
around and now it’s 10 am. Doesn’t seem
we’re getting anywhere too fast.
Linda said she and one of the twins might not be
going to the Saturday sew … We thought then should we really go. I don’t know about CS – she’s been trying to
get there, though she doesn’t usually commit until the end. That means if we’re lucky there are three of
us and then the room is like $25 each, plus another $100 for overnight, and
about $25-30 for meals AND there’s another $25 to fill the gas tanks. So, all in all … $175 … it’s a lot out for
not many being there. I do think that
these three left would be enough of a “Value” to going, just in the present
mood we’re not thinking of doing or liking anything. Just not sure. I don’t think we’ve talked to Rich about it
yet. Linda said she’d talk to the girls
on Saturday, but …
Hmm, we just wrote a short note … couldn’t get
really up about it, but we don’t see the point of waiting 3 more days – though
it’s likely it will take that long to get news.
I don’t know maybe Linda is meeting one of the twins in person? Kinda leaves us hanging though. Who knows – I need my sunnier mood to come
back.
I think we are feeling a bit of leftover from last
week with the PA group. We’ve not been
able to think much past it. We did talk
to Jim a little bit, but more that he was trying to figure out what
happened. We shared some stuff for him
to read. I don’t know what else is going
on – he didn’t share, nor did I ask what was happening in the group without me. At this point, it has to be none-of-my
business.
Hmm, Linda is now stating she will be there, but
might leave at 7-8 pm. That would be
very helpful. Maybe some of the others
would respond too.
Yesterday was a day with Dr. Marvin and one of the
first things and then dragged into the session by us was what had happened on
Friday. I think we explained it before
that we’d taken extra medicine because we wanted to sleep – that always has
deeper ramifications for us that come up in Dr. M and our talking level. That part of the session was very hard and
slowed us down quite a bit. Then we were
doing a lot of talking about what had happened in the group and from his
perspective I could see him the last 15 minutes or so trying to make things a
little more optimistic as to looking for another shift in attention to a new
project.
We weren’t into it yet though and didn’t really want
to hear it at all. It seemed the best
time was taking distraction time with Dakota – we showed Dr. Marvin that he
could now rollover. It somehow feels
that the care we can give him in petting, water, or treats is somehow fixing us
too. Should probably share that with Dr.
Marvin
Also, we had some problems because of the drive and
our arms – around the elbow level.
Having them up in the driving position hurt a lot – and it was tiring us
out … we spent quite a while thinking or asking ourselves – where could we pull
over that wouldn’t drive the dog crazy for just us getting some sleep. We made
it home – but, just because we had to quick stop and that jarred our
attention. We almost were in an accident
too – didn’t tell Rich or Dr. M, but on Wood street where the parking garage is
we were going straight and someone from one of the side streets didn’t realize
I had no stop sign and came into the intersection. We both stopped, I yelled at him – I don’t
have a stop sign – they looked and then they realized it was their fault, but
we’d both stopped in time, so I just went on.
It was pretty screechy brakes scary.
Hmm, Rich forgot his keys so just came in so we told
him. He just said you gotta be careful,
and agreed he was dumb. I guess we can
move on then?
So now it’s 10:40 am, Rich is gone until about 5
pm. We didn’t have a chance to talk
today at all because he’s so crazy busy with work stuff. He’s already put in a 5-6 hour day and we’re
not even started. BLAH. We should probably really do something about
getting the machines going. That be a
start, right? Maybe first the washing
machine.
There 6 minutes and we cleaned up the bedroom floor,
started the washing machine and started the dishwasher. Rich put our fancy glasses on the bottom – eh
we’ll see if they break or wash or neither.
Too raggedy to deal with it. He’s
already using the pan wash because the machine wasn’t cleaning enough – I don’t
think it’s working proper, but he’s the one that’s got to pay the bill.
Still feel pretty low for getting so much done in
one quick trip. This might take a little
while, but hoping that we can write/work our way out of it. Dr. Marvin was asking us what we had liked
about what we were doing before. I told
him that we’d liked the conversation part – it was long and tedious, but we
liked figuring out what we thought people were trying to say and then placing
it in the write order as if the conversation were happening. I think that kind of thing has to happen more
often, but then when we looked over the conversation that was happening, it
wasn’t enough information to make it coherent and it seemed that people get
really distracted writing on the message board – a lot of times people stop to
tell their stories which isn’t a bad thing, but take the question at hand off
task, and we are to blame for that kind of thing happening too.
We talked to him after he suggested that we had what
it took to start our own conversation like the message board, but we’d told him
we’d processed that already a bit on our own.
Basically the message board is free, but we’d have to host it on our own
web page and that would cost money – the site we followed down was like $170 a
year, plus we’d have to do all the figuring out and there is no motive for
people to come. Plurality Resource Forum
is already up and encounters a lot of multiples, but the difference would be
that in mine people could talk in public.
From what I gathered at PRF – most multiples couldn’t do that. So it kind of leaves a very blank space
between a real conversation and being public.
It’s not very much of a conversation if we can’t say the stuff out
loud. I really don’t know how to get
past that point.
We’ve also taken a hit to our confidence. The whole thing with PA had sounded real as
if it were going to happen and there was some structure to it, but the
structure wasn’t sound. And, the
leadership wasn’t working together. I
think what Dr. Marvin and Rich are trying to say is that we should work on our
own project so that we can maintain some control of it, but it still have to be
a lot as to people getting along, but in all reality – I don’t see people being
there. Again very little motivation to
talk amongst so few people that would dare to speak out loud – even if they
masked their names.
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